Monday, October 23, 2006

Am I paranoid or is everyone actually plotting against me?

Bethel Woods

Spending the weekend with my friend and her
fiancĂ© in the country should have been relaxing, but for the social dysfunction. On the drive up, sitting in the backseat of the cluttered SUV, I sensed distinct disapproval blowing my way. This made me nervous. I couldn’t decided if I should chat them up or shut the fuck up for fear that I should be perceived either as an insufferable gasbag or a surly stick-in-the-mud. During the car ride and throughout the weekend, I couldn’t shake the feeling that my offending personality was just being tolerated. Just.

Am I a jackass? Because if I’m not, then why do I get the sense that everybody thinks so? And, why is this sensation increasing in frequency over the past several years?

Friday, October 20, 2006

Goodbye, Lin Yu Feng

"Passed away" is never a comfortable euphemism to use, but it doesn’t feel correct to say dead. My cousin passed away. He never woke up from the car accident, stayed on life support for a week. He was 28. The family said goodbye and he went in a tranquil eight-hour ceremony.

Life is unpredictable and short.

Yu Feng